I’ve been deliberating for some time now about making this blog public. It already is in the way that you just need to search my name followed by blog on Google and there I am 🙂 I mean whether to make it more accessible; to link to it from my social media accounts. I would love as many people as possible to read my writing. If it was about beauty products or fashion there would be no questioning. But it isn’t, it’s about my personal life, my own struggles with my mind. I imagine a lot of people would feel that these kinds of things should stay private, locked away and spoken about only in whispers between friends or therapists. I don’t agree. I believe the longer those thoughts go on, the longer the subjects I address in this blog are kept as dirty laundry then the longer the stigma attached with mental health disorders will go on and the more lives will be lost. Quite a lot of people in my life know that I suffer from anxiety and depression. Not that many know the extent to which it has affected my daily life.
Making this blog known to more people; including those people I have known for years, or work with, or have recently befriended is a huge decision. I do worry what people will think of me. I hope they realise that I am the same person even if I have experienced different thoughts to them. I’m not a danger to anyone, I’m not violent, I won’t burst into tears over one harsh comment, I do still laugh, I do still have fun, I don’t want to kill myself, I do want to get better. If the past couple of years has taught me anything it’s that I must try and always see a positive in every circumstance. I feel that if even one person can identify with something I’ve wrote then I’m doing the right thing sharing this with my world. I absolutely love this quote by Glenn Close which is so true to life in 2015; “It is an odd paradox that a society, which can now speak openly and unabashedly about topics that were once unspeakable, still remains largely silent when it comes to mental illness.”